Love: Question Mark

Everyone keeps talking about how they want to find love in Italy. Like being here will magically make all of their romantic dreams come true. I'm sure the wine and the charm of the city help, but is love something you can plan? I don't think I could plan on finding something when I don't even know what it is. That's like knowing there's a guy named Waldo who's always getting lost and attempting to search for him when you don't even know what he looks like. You'd be looking forever.

I think I thought I was in love once, or something like it, but that was just a waste of time and days spent eating ice cream on the couch. Plus, can you plan for love to only last three months? That seems fleeting. I'm confusing myself. It's so intricate, and yet simple at the same time. No wonder people who are in love always complain about having the feeling of butterflies in their stomachs, it's because they're so freaking confused about what love actually means!

And I'm not just picking on love, relationships in general can make your head spin too. Friends with benefits, booty calls, seeing someone, it's 'complicated,' in a relationship but not in a relationship on facebook (which clearly dictates what is official and what is not), an open relationship... I need a Xanax. Whatever happened to: boy likes girl. girl likes boy. girl and boy date ? Did that go out of style when hair scrunchies did? I just think that if a guy really likes someone, he will make it happen...which comes back to this whole idea of how relationships carry too much pressure. With so much corruptness going on in the world, do relationships need to be equally as draining? They're supposed to be fun and care-free, and happy! They're not meant to make people stressful, anxious, jealous, or miserable. And with 50% of marriages ending in divorce, the latter unfortunately seems to be the type of relationship most people are in. But I don't want that.

Smiling and laughing are two of life's simple pleasures that I over-indulge in on a regular basis (gay, but true), and I don't think I should give that up for anyone. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, well, I'm not really sure. I just don't want relationships to have such a negative connotation. People should take them in their organic form-a connection between people. Simple, right? But I guess that's easier said than done...